2017

It's been ageeeeees since the last time I posted here ! So glad that I decided to start blogging again. I don't know why but I just felt that way. Maybe because I just missed how I spend my high school and college years telling the story of my boring life in here. Knowing that no one will read it except me myself and I are the greatest feeling ever ! No one to judge, no one to care but just letting go everything I feel and keep all this while. Gituu.

And yeah , here I am in my dream country since forever ...... UK ! Alhamdullilah it was a lifelong dream came true. Can't be grateful enough for the fact that I am here in UK. Alhamdullilah , thank you Allah. Arrived here was like 4 months ago and now already 2017. Gosh how time flies. Obviously there are a lot of people left, but not to forget for those who stay. You guys are da bomb !!

Got a lot of things going on my mind right now (literally) and one of it is that HOW DID I SURVIVED UNTIL NOW ?? Mysterious question ever. From the start ( I mean during SPM examination), I just felt it was so hard like super duper hard. Can you imagine like how did I studied NINE subjects at the same time ? Not to forget all those positions I hold and a lot of extra activities/sports/events I involved at that time. And still I managed to do my best. Then there was what we called 'college' life (lah sangat). A-level mehh. No jokes. It was double triple hard. And the funniest thing was that, the common sayings I heard was;

"Lek, degree life would be much better (which I assumed better in terms of easier in studying and all) than Alevel) " 

"You survive Alevel, for sure you'll survive Degree" 

"Don't worry lah, JPA will not tendang punya ( confirm lepas as in 'lulus' I guess? )

And here I am, struglling so hard. DEGREE IS HARD WEHH. Oh forgot to tell that I am preparing for my very first Final Exam now and yet what am I doing right now ? This shows the level of stress I'm on right now blegh. Can't wait to finish this hell exam month and watch all the dramas weeee. Never knew it was this hard to be away from your best friends and family ofc. So yeah, keep moving on Aisya ! You can do this Fighting In shaa Allah <3 Assalamualaikum peeps xo

Yeah its youu !

Finally you found it ! Hahaha lap youu xx

Thinking out loud

One month already. Time flies so fast duhh. Hmm study hmm not so good not so bad. But im not satisfied with my very first accounting quiz. Not sure is it i am the only one who felt that it was quite hard especially for a quiz ! Not even test or exam kot aigoo . Getting better with the new surrounding , much better with my babes in the same class ^.^ 

Just thinking about the AS exam make me wanna cry :'(( And all the test and final examinations that I have to go through before the Trial and the real exam. Ya Allah please ease my way. In shaa Allah.

2016 , United Kingdom . Look like it was easy before I entered Intec. Buttt the reality is totally different. Knowing that friends from korean program are going to fly less in a month time makes me happy sad and cuak at the same time. They just finished their last paper today. And I heard in shaa Allah everyone managed to fly to korea. And me here in Alevel urghhh nothing duhh . We are not even sure about our future . I mean anyone can ditendang by intec ohyemgeeee seriously cant imagine bout it :(( 

Should stop overthinking. Live well guys ! Assalamualaikum xx

Never give up

    

Spending the first weekend of any sem is never a fun one haha with nothing to do no homework no money no berjimba durr.

 Even it was only a week so many bad things happened like seriously can't I live happily and don't have to care about anything? Life is sure great without a care isn't it. Looking at those people did the things they said they will never did is the worst feeling ever. Trying not to care bout them but whatever it is they are still my friends . Hoping that I will never be one of that kind of people. Because I know that it is easier to say rather than to go through the situation. So it is a note to self too .

 Please , seriously please do remind me to go back to the right path if I were to drift away from it.

Worrying about something will never change a thing but trust in Allah changes everything. -Z

Fresh new start xx

    

Bismillah , a new sem just started. New aims and in shaa Allah better results. Even though today is not a great first day that I expected to have as most of my sedbergh members are in the other classes. We are no longer sedbergh. I am  no longer Sedbergh. Now I am Saltashian acehh haha. It is sure hard to get along with new people but I am surely know that everything would be just fine as we are a family kan ? No matter lah what class are you in , our aim is still the same . United Kingdom , 2016. May Allah bless our journey. But the worst thing was to not have my polar bear in the same class. Huh . To the positive side,sarah nadh zethy is in the same class weeee and dewi too. Alhamdullilah. New lecturers is something that bothered and scared me. Afraid that I can't get along with their style but it's totally depends on me to deal with it and study smart. Just hoping for the best ! Lots of love ,S xx

New page .

Assalamualaikum peeps :) 

1st January 2015.

A new start. 

2014 , too many things had happened in just 365 days. Things changed , people changed , people came and people left. Zillion thanks for those who stayed, and not to forget for those who left at least the memories last forever. Of good and bad things that happened, I've learned so many things. Not to trust anyone too much , not to love anyone too much, 'too much' itself is never a good thing tho . Except for the love to our Creator. And not to lose hope because of silly things. 2014 had been a tough year for me, and the whole Malaysians. One after another incidents happened. All the crisis sure have its own reasons behind that. Not to forget that its the hints to all of us from Allah. Sometimes when I felt so down and got a mental breakdown, I will just think about those who are suffering much more than me . I mean what dehel that I have to be so sad just because something is not going well as I wished it to be ? Who am I to be so 'not grateful' ? Just looking at the flood victims , its really broke my heart into pieces. When the victims went back home after the flood, and look at their hometown , there is nothing. They have to start their life all over again from zero. Almost every thing ruined. Yet they are still strong to face all that. So what is the reason for us to be sad and breakdown over something that is not even a big deal. This is a note to myself. Stay strong ! Looking forward for a better days coming for 2015. Lets be a better muslimah In shaa Allah . Take care guys and Happy New Year ! Assalamualaikum xx 

Give me the strength.

Why is it hurts to see someone else happiness ? I don't wanna feel this way . And of course I know that its wrong . But what that person did is too much . Too much to handle. I always hope that , that person will be happy but then why am I the one who is suffering ? Why me ? I should be happy too right ? Why you came into my life when you were planning to leave me the next day ? Why it hurts so much ? For you , I was a chapter but for me you were the book. Please lah . Get out of my mind . 

I'm afraid to listen to this , I won't leave you. Because at the end of the day , they did things they said they will never did.

In Shaa Allah

It's raining heavily all day long almost every day right now . Pheww but Alhamdullilah its not causing flood yet in my housing area. Feeling bad to know that Kelantan and Terengganu are now struggling their life with floods. With the latest news , one year old baby is suspected to be drowning in the flood while her mother trying to save her other two sons that almost drowning at that moment. Haih I don't know what to say , just praying that everything will be fine for them. Stay strong everyone !

Olla !

    

Yesterday I just finished watching the Sahabat drama series. Well for me , it is one of the best malay drama that I ever watched. They got a good storyline , I mean it showed many good points to the audience. Like how a real friendship is . Hmm sounds cliché isn't it ? But seriously there's a big difference between guys and girls friendships . Like how Bak and Shaq get along together in just a simple scene. But for girls I'm sure that it will takes time or even years or forever just for girls to get back together as friends/bestfriends. ( you know why ? See up there , the second pic. That's the reason why. It's easier to forgive an enemy than a friend .) Don't you agree ? Even though the drama is not that gempak as the other malay dramas but it's worth watching it. Great actors and actresses , great plots and of course great friendship ! Sahabat never fails to make me smile and laugh at their scenes. The last scene was a bit heartbreaking , when Shaq tried to confess his feeling to Alia and end things up at that moments but he just couldn't express it. Oh my , so sad haha what ever it is , that is the last time I can watch Syarif Sleeq acting huwaaaa . Need more dramas with this guy in it , He's a great actor anyway !!  

Till forever

   

Back then in 2010 was my very first post of this blog. When I reread all the posts  that posted before , it was super duper funny yet sad and terrifying moment for me. How immature i am at that time. How I let all my anger in here. How I spread my happiness in here. How I told my beloved ones that I love them ((or hate them !)) and above all that , how all the people that I've mentioned in this blog before changed. And ofc how me , myself changed. It's only around five years gap from the first post till now but I felt that every single thing have changed. Few stay, most of them left. Whatever it is , hope that everyone has a good life right now and I do treasure all the good and bad memories that I've been through before :) Thanks to them I know how to stay alive haha Be happy guys ! 

" Sometimes you miss the memories not the person "

                                       Lots of love , S .